This past few days has absolutely torture me to the edge. My step dad is at home, some of you might understand the tense i'm having. In a way, my emotions become unstable and I really need someone to help me out. to -somehow- catch me when I'm falling apart. Not everybody understands the state of problem i'm having, and not everybody understands me wholly, thoroughly.

When I actually found someone to turn to ... he seemed very busy, very far away. A part of me said that he might not care for me that much, and after this, it finally shows. But, the rest of me, feel like I need to put myself in his shoe, and understand him completely.

To the ones who always comprehend with my needs, it's my obligation, and responsibility to show them back, that I do care and able to comprehend back to their needs. Even if I cant satisfy them with full completeness or perfection ... I do [honestly] tried my best.

I might not be writing in there for a period of time. I need to find that piece of happiness of mine -which I have long forgotten-. When the time comes, this blog will be full of new stories (at least that's what I'm hoping). I might just post a few words, pictures, or maybe just a symbol. I mean, I cant really leave my ramblings without anything inside.

For those who read this blog in order to only track me down, because one cannot reach me .. [too busy or anything], try harder. That is, if you do care enough to look for me harder.

Thank you.